Wow, I can’t believe that it has been over four months since my last post! As the saying goes – time flies when you’re having fun – but for me the past year was more a case of time that flew even though I was not having fun.
2016 was a tough year for me; probably one of the toughest yet. It was professionally challenging more than anything else, but unfortunately I let that spill over into (and to a large extent consume) my personal life and it really had a negative impact on me. I felt despondent, emotionally drained, not good enough, angry, sad, tired and sorry for myself. And there was no way I could hide all of that in my writing. So I stopped. And I didn’t want to start again until I was sure that I was ready to be the real me again.
‘And now, what’s changed?’, I hear you ask.
Well, not a whole lot. In reality, only one thing really. Me. My outlook on life. My mindset. And I’m back!
With the help of the love of my life, a.k.a my amazing husband and my friends (a special mention to the CoreCore team and my friend who had to come to the work’s kitchen with tissues on more than one occasion!), I’ve found my stride again. I am so grateful to each and everyone one of you for putting up with my moods, my silences, my sarcastic comments, my tears, my self-doubt. Never judging, always supporting and encouraging, and just being there for me. I would not have made it through 2016 without you!
So there was no big epiphany. Just a gradual realization (and acceptance) of what I already knew deep down inside. That no one could do anything about the way I was feeling or the way I was reacting to what was happening to me, but myself. I saw one of those motivational posters that read: “There comes a point in your life when you realize that turning the page is the best feeling in the world, because there’s so much more to the book that the page you were stuck on.” I was holding on to all the negative feelings for so long because it was just easier to do so than figuring out how to move forward. So slowly I worked through the things I had going on in my head until I came to a point where I was finally ready to admit that only I could change the way I was feeling. And yes, while the world around me is still pretty much the same, I now remember that I have control over how I react to those things that upset me and that just ignoring how I feel about it won’t make it go away either. It’s like the old saying of not being able to fill a cup that is already full… And going forward I will always make sure that there is always room in my cup for something more!
And what better way to celebrate than getting back to writing!
If I look back at my first blog post in December last year, I am so proud of having started WorkFoodHome! I remember how scared I was when I pressed “publish” that first time! (To be honest, most of my friends and family still don’t know that I have a blog, but that’s about to change! Deep breaths, deep breaths!)
So, in 2107 you can look forward WorkFoodHome really showcasing the things I am passionate about – more recipes, more travel stories and more beautiful photography – all with hubby by my side!
Here is to 2017 being filled with joie de vivre!